We finally decided to go see some property this weekend. My mother-in-law kept the boys (THANK YOU!!!) and we took the girls out to Mendocino county. Having never shopped for acreage before, we were nowhere near prepared. Of the 8 properties we wanted to see, we were actually able to see only 2. We ran into locked gates, unmarked property lines and “street” addresses (if they were on the listing – a rarity), dirt roads, creek crossings, and sketchy potential neighbors who probably had a certain cash crop growing. Still, we learned a ton and we managed to find one property that we really liked. There was another that I would have probably loved, but we couldn’t get past the gate. We walked for a while to see if we could get out there, but got lost on the way. Four hundred acres should not be that hard to find.
It is very easy to get ahead of ourselves, so we will take more time to pray before another trip. We’ve come up with an alternate plan for the transition, which would involve much less risk, but also more work. My mom will approve, because it doesn’t involve me quitting my job right away. I am torn because it feels like a half-measure when we need radical commitment to make this a reality. It’s good to have some idea of what we can get, and even better to have refined our understanding of what we want, but I still don’t know what God wants.
While we drove, I read a random Psalm out loud (since we missed church) and then we talked about it a bit. It was Psalm 33, and I was especially encouraged by v. 8-9:
Let all the earth fear the Lord;
Let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him.
For He spoke, and it was done;
He commanded, and it stood fast.
My eagerness or hesitancy will not thwart the purpose of God. If this is His plan, it is inevitable. We came and saw, but like Joshua and Caleb, it might be longer than we would like until God does the conquering. The last thing we want to do is miss out on His plan, but the best part is knowing that He doesn’t want us to miss out either. His will is never a mystery when you are ready to obey, but I’ve learned that He is far more interested in things like purity, humility, love and service. If we are ignoring His revealed Word, he won’t have much else to say about temporal things until we repent. I need examine my heart and make sure I am seeking His will in everything before we take another step.
*UPDATE: We are going to Redding on May 2nd to look at another property. I’m super excited about this one. Must pray…